Allison Becker

SELF ESTEEM

 
   Sometimes back when I was just a young girl in my primary school , I had big issues with self esteem. this would happen most times when boys and girls would laugh at me due to my body size. not only did my school mates laugh at me but also the outsiders. one day on my way to school a man called me out and asked me whether what I was wearing was a school uniform or my workplace uniform. He went a head and  used sexual language on me and asked whether he can drop me at my workplace. 
  This was my new beginning of self hate and more over loss of self esteem. I would refuse to go to school and lock myself in my room a whole day. Since my mother never understood me that time, she would shout at me and make our house help drag me to school when crying. I was so young I did not know how to open up to what was bothering me. I started getting sick, I would have headaches often and I would be in and out of  hospitals.

   At ten years my breast were out , that's when I was bought a book top but alas! I only wore it for one weekend and the following week I had a bra. Sometimes I  would bend due to the growing of my breasts which happened so fast .I hated it!  on the same year my periods were here! and I totally had no idea what on earth that was. You know all the crampy staffs that happens during the menstruation period and since I never feared  to approach my mother when am sick, I gave her my symptoms (parents are God  given and they really understand this 'things').

    By the way she approached me and taught me from grass what menstruation was, that is when I opened up on my self esteem issues. she helped me gain self confidence by encouraging me each and everyday to go to school and she would comment how beautiful I am and she also bought me books on self esteem . That was my first journey of joining  the Big and the Brave society . I am Big, Brave, Bold and Beautiful .